i am crying for beirut

i am in amsterdam with basak, just saw a friend i met in beirut.
koken sends me the news of the Hezbollah attack on Future TV building. he says i stayed in Zico building, it is two blocks away. i was also there all the time for late night hangings with home works crew. i immediately start to read the news. aljazeera says harshest clashes taking place since 1975-90 civil war. 18 people killed. that hezbollah took the roads going to the airport, the roads that i passed only 20 days ago under the posters of hezbollah. basak says jalal toufic was very afraid of a coming close civil war. we all fear "is this the beginning" again? i am crying for beirut...